1. I believe in ghosts, but not in the way you might expect. I think that when we actively remember a person who has passed, the chemicals and electricity in our brains making up the thoughts and memories related to that person form the 'ghost'. When we are faced with a decision and contemplate how the deceased would have handled it, or draw upon an inspirational person who is no longer living, that is the ghost 'speaking' to us. I know, kind of strange, but I am a strange person I guess. One of the songs I do, Shut Your Mouth, is my abrasive tribute to a fallen classmate and fellow veteran whose death was mocked and used as fodder for gossip by many of our more immature and insensitive peers; I like to think that live performances of this song are a kind of seance.
I've been struggling lately to find a good balance between promoting my
music and being a pushy, tiresome, overly zealous used car salesman. On
the one hand, if I do nothing to 'push' the tunes on people, no one is
going to hear them. On the other, I have had a fair amount of people on
the dreary facebook get upset at me for inviting them to all of our shows,
and especially for posting about the shows on their profile. Ashlee"Pay
attention to my blog that's all about promiscuous sex and my eating disorder
so I can feel better about myself"Raggle even called me an internet
troll and un-friended me because I 'shared' a couple of our show pages
on her facebook wall. It's my belief that as an artist I have a bit more
leeway that the average huckster. That is what I consider my music -
art. I do like to have a good time when playing, and I hope the audience
does, but I go to great lengths to write meaningful lyrics, and I
aspire to write interesting, creative, worthwhile music as well. For me
it is about something very different than just shaking asses, impressing
babes with swagger, and getting free drinks.
3. In the
same vein at the previous item, I have often been accused (lately even
more so) of taking myself, life, and generally everything too seriously.
I am constantly being told to lighten up, take it easy, get a thicker
skin, not to worry about things, to stop making a big deal out of it, et
cetera, etc. There have been some situations that were supremely
frustrating, because these were things that I felt really deserved to
be 'taken seriously', yet my carefree companions kept to their
lackadaisical disposition and continued to encouraged me to do the same.
A prime example: several months back while on a weekend shooting trip,
the guys were doing several things that violate the four basic weapons safety rules, and when I stopped them to give them some instruction,
they kept interrupting me with funny anecdotes about shooting
accidents...all while they continued to wave their guns around with
fingers on the trigger (although I had made them unload prior to my
safety lecture). Now I am not trying to lay judgement on those dudes, I
certainly wasn't trying to ruin their fun, and one of them did
eventually speak up on my behalf and helped to reign in the others. But
it was my strong impression that when I insisted on shutting down the
shooting to give them a safety talk, they were thinking something like
"Oh god, here he goes again. I've handled guns a lot before, why can't
he just lighten up?" But seriously - that is how people get accidentally
shot! Oh well...I am probably just over thinking all of this and taking
it all too seriously.